“I never wanted to chase my dreams, but to follow them.”

Alex “The Cardman” Perricone

Last night, I finished watching the most prestigious championship in Counter-Strike 2, the world’s premier team-based first-person shooter video game. Known as the “Cathedral of Counter-Strike,” the LANXESS arena in Cologne, Germany was filled with over 15,000 cheering fans and even broke viewership records with over 2.76 million fans who watched 32 teams from all over the world compete for a share of a 1.25 million dollar prize pool. If you’ve never played or watched Counter-Strike (CS) before, imagine two 5-man teams battling each other; one to fulfill an objective while the other tries to stop them. Each team must rely on lightning-fast reflexes, precise communication, and flawless teamwork as they adapt to changing situations and manage economical circumstances round-by-round. Counter-Strike is a game that I have played since I was a teenager and like me, it continues to evolve.

What does it take to be the best at anything? Going pro is fascinating to me because of what it takes and how it transforms you. It makes me realize that for every one thing that can be aspired to, there is a sacrifice to be made. Some may call this a tradeoff: an intentional compromise that becomes somewhat of a balancing act. But what if the tradeoff could merely be just a rearrangement of time itself?

“Ten thousand hours is the magic number of greatness.”
~ Malcolm Gladwell, 2008.

Most professional CS players typically have between 10,000 and 15,000 hours of total playtime. Some younger to the scene have less, relying on their own extraordinary innate talent. Other more veteran players have 20,000 hours or more! To put that into perspective, imagine treating the game like a full-time job, grinding anywhere from 8 to 14 hours a day; genuine ambition right there. But that’s gotta take a toll on you, especially on those who you love around you; a substantial sacrifice in many ways. It is through getting to know the stories behind the pros that one begins to fully appreciate the meaning and goodness that can come out of such devotion, despite the adverse challenges of seeking balance.

There is one story in particular that stands out to me. Nikola Kovač, known in-game as “NiKo” is widely considered the greatest rifler in Counter-Strike history. Competing at the highest tier of professional Counter-Strike for well over a decade, he holds the record for the most HLTV Top 20 Player of the Year appearances in history. However, he suffered from multiple heartbreaking losses in Major grand finals, cementing his status as the “best player to never win a Major”. For years, the CS community largely called this a curse, further adding to the idea that if time passed NiKo into retirement without winning a Major, his career would be one of the most storied and yet tragic.

But yesterday, all of that changed as NiKo led Team Falcons in a 3-0 sweep over FURIA to win the IEM Cologne 2026 Major! What he had to say about that victory and most importantly: the journey…that’s what stays with me. The video that follows is a moment from the trophy ceremony with NiKo and it says everything beyond the words alone.

Sometimes we have to destroy parts of ourself in order to build a truer self. But if we keep love at the center of the mess we make, we can pick up those pieces that fall away from us; carrying them with nobler intentions to reshape and reunite them together again. We should not be haunted by the wait for greatness, but freed by the road that leads to it. And that is the story I wish for all dreams.